It comes to a point where so much is happening, that there’s nothing to say. One of the nation’s two major political parties is openly embracing a strategy which is anti-democratic. A pandemic is raging across the nation, as some 45% of the population plainly believes a quarter of a million deaths in eight months isn’t something to take seriously enough to cause them to reconsider their political loyalties. The investor class is once again reaping the benefits of the rest of the nation being dragged through the thorn strewn ditch the same pandemic is producing in regards to an…


As it seems Halloween is going to be happening under social distancing and quarantine, those of us who love the holiday could use a way to celebrate which can doesn’t put people at risk. I’m going to do my part by posting a good deal of content related to the holiday, various other topics often associated with Halloween, horror film and other horror content. I’m getting started with this list for people, like myself, who are going to try and extend the Halloween season a bit since there will certainly be many fewer events, parties and the like to go…


It is a necessity that we do not ignore the reality of the way new control measures in VA are already being enforced, and the tenor of those with institutional power in their approach to enforcement. In Richmond VA, thousands of armed, overwhelmingly white protesters came from all over VA and from out of state for the 2A protest at the capitol a few months ago. The presence of far right adherents and white supremacists has already been documented. …


The story of Ahmaud Arbery’s death is everywhere now that the video of him being shot has emerged. The assailants, Gregory McMichael and his son Travis, are claiming they saw Ahmaud jogging and believed him to “fit the description” of a suspect seen on a security camera during in a break-in committed in their area. They both grabbed guns and proceeded to attempt to stop Ahmaud Arbery. According the Gregory McMichael’s report to police, Ahmaud violently attacked them when they attempted to stop him, and Travis McMichael shot Ahmaud in self defense.

The video has a different story to tell


There has been a strain of a few arguments against the stay at home orders began in many states. The particular argument I’m concerned with comes in the form of a question. “What about people who have mental illnesses that end up committing suicide because they can’t pay their bills?’ That question has now made it out of the fever swamps of internet arguments, and right wing news outlets have begun to ask it of politicians. I’ve blown past it when I’ve seen it, up until now. It’s something I couldn’t even contend with because it comes across to me…


We started two wars, did unspeakable things, and killed over a million people, because 3,000 Americans were killed. 20 years later, we’re still involved in military operations in numerous countries, because those 3,000 Americans died.

It’s patriotic to support that 20 years long effort that we’re told is about recompense for those 3,000 Americans, and the protection of the rest of us still living. It’s unpatriotic, we’re told, to question how sensible or reasonable it is to continue that effort, putting more people’s lives in danger all these years later, after regime changes, upheavals of epic proportions and the like…


Let’s talk about what it’s like to have a severe and chronic mental illness, and live as a male in a society which has until very recently put a premium on a variety of masculinity which is brutally inhumane and deeply unhealthy.

I have a severe and chronic mental illness. I was diagnosed with major depression in my teens. It turns out, after 30 years of attempting to battle depression and anxiety, the more correct diagnosis is PTSD. Depression and anxiety are often the symptoms of PTSD, but PTSD has it’s own fun symptoms as well. It’s not that I…


There are a few hours left to the trip. Bobbi, Jaime, Michael and I are having a good time. At the moment, we’re having a little fun at Michael’s expense. He’s been wearing the same T shirt for three days, as 13 year old boys are want to do. Bobbi sits next to me, holding my hand, and the children sit across from us. Jaime is making exaggerated faces and acting like she’s trying to escape her seat to get away from the T shirt. The conversation turns to what we’ll do when we get to Mitchell’s. I tell them…


I don’t believe you. It all comes down to this, really.

I just don’t believe you. It doesn’t mean you’re lying. You might actually believe what you’re saying, but you haven’t the slightest ability to ask yourself if maybe you’re wrong. Whether or not you’re right, that’s wrong, and really, the whole of my life has been attempting to reorient, after we’ve found out you’ve been wrong, very wrong, for a very long time. Still, you prattle on.

I just don’t believe you.

I don’t believe the moral arc of the universe bends toward justice. I don’t believe there’s a…


Maybe it’s that it keeps coming up in different articles, columns and op-eds. Maybe I’m just slightly obsessed. I can’t really be sure. What I do know is Obama’s comments about “cancel culture,” being “woke,” and “purity politics” get under my skin in a way that’s usually reserved for conservative pundits.

I have the distinct impression he doesn’t quite understand the dynamics of what’s happening as social media continues to change the cultural landscape. Maybe he does, and there is just a fundamental disagreement about what is good about those changes and what isn’t.

In some ways, this conversation has…

Alex Pagliuca

Tired, weary human. Excavating the geography between trauma, masculinity, mental health, and their social expressions. Anti-racist, anti-sexist. Learning.

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